May 2011
93 posts
Chicago
went to chicago today for memorial day with some of my sweet friends. had a blast and took a bunch of pictures. in the editing process in between updating. ill post em up soon!
don't ever say it if you don't mean it.
hiddensmilex:
thanks for sticking around!
yes…my blog is pretty personal. yet i allow complete strangers to read it. not too many of my friends even know about this blog. i dont make these posts for sympathy or for attention. like it says in my description. this is a blog about me. my day to day experiences. i use this blog mainly to vent. i just wanted to put all that out there. thanks for following tumblr people!
no matter how hard i try to get over it
mom: you know rei changed her status
me: yeah i know...
mom: oh who told you?
me: well i didnt mean to say i know...i just figured it was already changed. cuz i already know.
mom: oh
me: yeah i still talk to her. i know about him already. but what am i supposed to do. i tried already. it didnt work. he was just around at the right time. saying the right things she wanted to hear. we're just friends now...sort of.
mom: im sorry
me: dont be. its life. she found some one new. its crazy cuz i asked her when we were breaking up if there was someone else. just be honest with me cuz i dont wanna look like a fool. she promised me there wasnt. i asked her then what if shes with someone else in a month... then what? she told me, then it is what it is. thats when i knew for sure there was someone else but i wasnt gunna scrutinize her. you know we both have blogs that not too many people know about. its crazy cuz ill post something and then i feel like she posts something accordingly...and vice versa
mom: yeah i know. i dont know what they are but i know.
me: i want to move out. the other day i posted something about moving out...then so did she. talking about her boyfriend or whatever he is to her wanting to move in together. supposedly not like moving in together but as a roomate. another person to help pay the rent basically. like what the fuck. shes known this dude for barely a month. she said in her post that she waited four years for me to want to move out...and now im ready. but it was never like that. i messaged her on facebook like...i know i always said no. but it was only cus i wasnt financially ready. i didnt think she was either. i wanted to sooo bad but i knew i couldnt afford it.
mom: i know...thats why i feel so bad...she was like the daughter i never had. i wish she wouldve just waited it out til it got better. til you got this job. you know how hard it is for me not to call her and just ask her what went wrong. why she couldnt just wait it out?
me: i know, i know...it was because of her...her family...everyone in my life. thats what pushed me so hard to get this job. to prove that i could do better for myself. i told her that if we were still together it'd be her i was moving out with...not that it matters anymore.
mom: you still love her...i know you do
me: no!...well yeah. of course. but i told her im gunna talk to her as a friend now. and as i friend i dont think she shold move in with this guy. only after a month...are you kidding me. and im saying this as a friend...not as an ex. if it was any of my friends in the same situation id be saying the same thing.
mom: yeah but at some point you need to let her go. let her make her own decisions...whether it be a mistake or not. but i understand. you treat your friends like family and you only want the best for them.
me: i just dont want her to regret anything. i dont know. i feel like its complicated even this its not. decisions were made and thats it. im living my life. and so is she.
mom: which youve always done
me: yeah tell me about it...and now look where im at. and thats why i need to move out. so i can move on. start a new chapter in my life. just keep being me. julian...loving friends and family. loving music and streetwear. being mr asshole...being mr nice guy. im never gunna change...just learn from my mistakes. i gotta go...my friends are blowing me up.
mom: we'll talk later...
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The people with the biggest hearts always suffer...
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i get so bored on my days off. it doesnt help that all my friends work regular 9 to 5’s monday thru friday. most of the time my days off are just chill days. a little skating in the morning. maybe some picture taking in the afternoon. then a bullshit sesh til about 930 wit my friends. well thats my thursday off day. my fridays suck even more. i go in when everyone is getting ready to go out....
Anonymous asked: It is a brisk Friday morning. You are on your weekly morning walk, with coffee in hand, (two sugar cubes, no cream!) and you stumble across something odd. You investigate a little further and come to realize it is a journal of an elderly woman. You read a few pages hoping to find out the owner, but come across some very shocking entries such as a detailed suicide attempt and a written will. On the...
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Nighty night
The best part about goin to bed is falling asleep to my iPod. I fall asleep to music and wake up to music…i really like music lol
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movin out...soon...most likely
so for the past couple weeks my bro joe has been mapping out potential apartments for us to move too. sounds homo..i know. but that’s aside the fact. i hadn’t told my parents about it cuz i know they’re not ready for me to leave. but with them most likely moving within a few months i feel its the right time.
i finally mentioned it to my mom after work tonight. i could tell she...
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SHWING!
at work today i found out that they want me to take off on monday. its memorial day and students don’t get holiday pay while we’re training. i could just work that day and have my normal days off but what the hell. the first thing that came to mind was a chicago trip. my bro joe is off as well so i think we’ll be taking a photo walk. ive been wanting to do this for awhile now....
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Real Talk
chilling at marys drinking and bullshitting.
me: i need a girl who likes the same music as me. you know, hxc, and underground hip hop.
joe: well yeah
me: but i need a girl that knows an awesome graphic tee when i wear one.
joe: man you're specific
Anonymous asked: Things used to be, now they not
Anything but us is who we are
Disguising ourselves as secret lovers
We've become public enemies
We walk away like strangers in the street
Gone for eternity
We erased one another
So far from where we came
With so much of everything, how do we leave with nothing
Lack of visual empathy equates the...
Anything but us is who we are
Disguising ourselves as secret lovers
We've become public enemies
We walk away like strangers in the street
Gone for eternity
We erased one another
So far from where we came
With so much of everything, how do we leave with nothing
Lack of visual empathy equates the...
Ummm #fuckyeah
Too drunk to blog. But believe me there will be an awesome story to tell when I’m awake
I admit it, I still think about you. But it's...
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peace out
i know memories cant be erased. but for right now im just going to avoid them as best i can. so peace out. have a nice life. be safe. you will not hear a peep outta me anymore.
sorry
sorry for the crazy blow up last night tumblr peeps. i used to drunk tweet all the time but now ive started drunk blogging. i think i should keep it to twitter cuz tumblr gives me too many characters to say something lol. anyways…back to my regular posting!
intoxication=truth
i may be a little buzzed…but isn’t that the best time to really talk. people say when you re intoxicated you speak the truth. im a believer in that
no next times, no time outs, no second chances
you blog this like there are next times, there are time outs, there are second chances…just read it for what it is…no next times. no time outs. no second chances
2 weeks?
really? only 2 weeks…that’s all it took? guess i was fucking out a long time ago. i remember it only took a couple a couple days for me to realize i was in love. i wish people would just be straight up. there’s no need to beat around the bushes. don’t try and hide something. it’ll save a lot of time…and breathe in the long run.
plenty of times ive...
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Just saying...
He may be “taking a backseat” to your life…yet he’s getting all the benefits.
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You never notice me.
kimmando:
I’m pulling away so that i don’t look eager. I don’t want to look obvious. A part of me wishes you knew how i felt about you and the other part just wants to act like I don’t give a fuck. Honestly, I try so hard for you to notice me, but you don’t.
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my1588:
It’s amazing how someone can get over you so quickly. It’s only been a week since she broke up with me, but she already moved on and says she is done with it. After talking to her Sunday morning, I realized I don’t need her. I stayed with her because she was safe. Sure she was awesome, she made me…
so i looked like and idiot on saturday huh?…haha! alcohol and and great...
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